inner jihad

i hate my inability to deal with certain challenges

i hate my own weaknesses

this lethargy is coming back again and again

reducing my impact i have in society



it's not a fight against others but much more a fight against my own weakness

but if i win against myself

if i can overcome myself

i can overcome every external obstacle

and this prospect is a very motivating one for me

it shows me what i can accomplish when i have the discipline and the willpower