I wish for cancer

I wish for cancer

I wished I had cancer instead of this phantom sickness that has destroyed my life so relentlessly

I wish for a big black lung tumor, that anyone can see, who wants an explanation for my situation

I’d rather have a visible sickness obvious to anyone

Instead of my phantom terror

Rather be eaten up by malign cells which fancy machines can detect than a sickness, that science can’t comprehend

I’d sacrifice my sense of seeing and so much more to get well again

Years have gone by in uncertainty and medical ignorance

Rather an evident danger than CFS-lack-of-information